Don't Tell Me How To Do Things, I'm Trying To Figure It All Out On My Own.

I wish I knew how to make a good song.
Something to sing to every now and then.
A sort of message to remind me where I'm trying to get.
I can't really venture that far out of the C scale.
I wish I lived near a lake and had a boat.
I wish I could captain the ship, even if I take it out alone.
I wish I could go back upstate. I think I really need it.
I'm not that sad anymore, I'm doing better I'm sure of it.
I should go somewhere this summer. I just want woods.
I want to be able to walk knowing I'll get lost and figure out how to get out.
Pretty metaphoric without any sort of deep meaning behind it.
I hope people don't misconstrue everything I'm saying here.
It's all pretty straight forward.
I wanted to write a bunch of stuff on my own, then show people.
I can't really do that here. I always just write here.
It's nice that everything's sorted out, but I'd rather have my notebooks again.
I think if I sang well, I'd have done a show by now.

Life.

I like the phrase "what has been seen can't be un-seen".
It leaves me with some relief. Everything's real, even when it's not.
This whole year has been a bunch that I can't un-see,
from the church to the stormy weather, it's all happened.
Even if it didn't.

I spent the last three weeks on my own.
I figured out I could take care of myself when I have to.
I can do a lot of things,
I've just yet to see it.
Even if it doesn't happen.
I could have taken photos, though.

I should've went to the city at least once.
I think if I did, I should've went on my own for whatever reason.